Feeling Good

A few days ago, my daughter turned six months old. That’s quite a special age for her, since it marks the end of her parents’ trial period. Even though I had no doubt that they were the perfect family for her, the adoption agency does not sign over her guardianship until they have observed the…

A Fruitful Discovery

Okay, this is really random, so bear with me here, but I’ve been wanting to post this ever since I spent two months in Brazil with my boyfriend and his family. It was there that I discovered something amazing. You guys… There’s a whole world out there that I knew nothing about. A world of…

I Am… No, I’m Not

Do you ever find yourself constantly repeating something about you like it’s a fact, and then realizing one day that it’s not actually true? You aren’t intentionally lying; you just hadn’t stopped to think about whether your statement is accurate anymore… or was even accurate to start with. For example, when I was in high…

Don’t Talk of Love

Words, words, words… I will never be sick of words. You’d think since I have such a great love for the English language and the magical sentences it can create, I would be all for statements of love. Yet, I really have no interest in them. Sure, you can get all flowery like Shakespeare, and…

Awkward Talks

By the time you are an adult, it seems everyone has at least one awkward topic in their life. You know the ones, right? The facts that – when brought up – can end a conversation in a second, sometimes even clear the room. The stuff about you, your past, your family, whatever, that makes…

It Takes a Village

I love the phrase “It takes a village to raise a child.” If you really believe that, it takes a lot of pressure off of you as a parent, doesn’t it? Realizing that, even if you are a single parent, you aren’t doing it alone. You can’t do it alone. I don’t think it’s possible….

Speaking Pregnant

There’s always the same progression of questions. Early on, you aren’t showing much yet, and people aren’t really sure that you’re pregnant. They aren’t going to ask. How embarrassing if they are wrong. But if you happen to let them know somehow that you are, in fact, carrying life inside you, then the response generally…

Life-Changing Pain

Pain is a funny thing. Well… not in the moment, but in concept. About two years ago, I had strep throat. It was probably the most painful thing I had ever experienced in my life up to that point. It was like taking every sore throat I’d ever had and adding them all together, then…

Spilt Milk

There’s no point in crying over spilt milk, but there is a point in crying. You constantly hear women talk about hormonal breakdowns occurring during and after pregnancy. Things like, “I cried because Braum’s was closed, and I wanted a black forest sundae.” TV and movies portray the same idea constantly, banking on the amusing…

The Nine-Month Journey: Moving Forward

This is the beginning of December, and I’ve definitely reached the point of unhappiness with my body. I’m annoyed now by the leftover fat, the stomach rolls, the weak muscles, the saggy boobs, all of it. Which sets me in this sort of constant irritation with myself because I can’t or don’t do enough to…

The Nine-Month Journey: Physical Recovery

Everyone kept asking how I was feeling, how I was doing. I mean, that’s natural. Especially for the midwives and all that… they kind of need to know. But considering how uncomfortable the last two weeks of pregnancy were and how horrific the actual birth was, I felt like I was floating on air! I…

The Nine-Month Journey: Emotional Recovery

These are several segments I wrote separately throughout the first few days and weeks following my daughter’s birth – somewhat raw reactions. Here, I just did a little rearranging and cutting to make them flow better.   When I attended a birth moms’ support group in my last trimester, I received a lot of advice…