Growing in Patience

June 15 2012   “I am driving on a long empty road. I can see my destination at the end of it, and I just want to be there right now. But I’m not telepathic. I want to speed up and get there as fast as possible. But the speed limit is 35 mph. And…

Today, Tuesday

It was a Tuesday, just like this year. It was a Tuesday because that’s when flights were cheapest. They were waiting for me to fly home from Orlando before they took her off life support. So I could be there. I left the happiest place on earth and got on a plane for the first…

Growing In Compassion

The other day, I was discussing with my younger sister the struggle we have in erasing judgmental thoughts from our brains, especially as automatic responses. I was reminded of something I wrote several years ago:   “If you are sitting up on your high horse you may be able to see better what everyone else…

Growing In Love

Once upon a time (or April 22, 2016, to be more specific), I wrote the following in my journal: “I associate anger with a lack of love. It’s like I think we are all fairies, and we can only have one emotion at a time or something. And I know it’s not true, but telling…

Je Ne Se Quoi

The day has finally come when I do not have something to say perfectly in time for Thursday… Sigh. Well, it was a good run. Luckily, I get a free pass this week, as my brother (currently serving in Cuba with the American Navy) recently gave me this essay he wrote. I really enjoyed reading…

Feeling Good

A few days ago, my daughter turned six months old. That’s quite a special age for her, since it marks the end of her parents’ trial period. Even though I had no doubt that they were the perfect family for her, the adoption agency does not sign over her guardianship until they have observed the…

A Fruitful Discovery

Okay, this is really random, so bear with me here, but I’ve been wanting to post this ever since I spent two months in Brazil with my boyfriend and his family. It was there that I discovered something amazing. You guys… There’s a whole world out there that I knew nothing about. A world of…

I Am… No, I’m Not

Do you ever find yourself constantly repeating something about you like it’s a fact, and then realizing one day that it’s not actually true? You aren’t intentionally lying; you just hadn’t stopped to think about whether your statement is accurate anymore… or was even accurate to start with. For example, when I was in high…

Don’t Talk of Love

Words, words, words… I will never be sick of words. You’d think since I have such a great love for the English language and the magical sentences it can create, I would be all for statements of love. Yet, I really have no interest in them. Sure, you can get all flowery like Shakespeare, and…

Awkward Talks

By the time you are an adult, it seems everyone has at least one awkward topic in their life. You know the ones, right? The facts that – when brought up – can end a conversation in a second, sometimes even clear the room. The stuff about you, your past, your family, whatever, that makes…

It Takes a Village

I love the phrase “It takes a village to raise a child.” If you really believe that, it takes a lot of pressure off of you as a parent, doesn’t it? Realizing that, even if you are a single parent, you aren’t doing it alone. You can’t do it alone. I don’t think it’s possible….

Speaking Pregnant

There’s always the same progression of questions. Early on, you aren’t showing much yet, and people aren’t really sure that you’re pregnant. They aren’t going to ask. How embarrassing if they are wrong. But if you happen to let them know somehow that you are, in fact, carrying life inside you, then the response generally…