A Score For Your Life

Music is everything. Music has the power to control my emotions. Is that true for everyone? Or for anyone? Or for someone other than me?

I can feel uplifted, dark, inspired, cheerful, powerful, ambitious, moody, deep, saddened, grief-stricken, alone, amazed, comforted, encouraged, beautiful, worshipful, bright, enthusiastic, in awe…. But I never feel depressed when I listen to music. Even when it brings me to tears and moves me to write sad things, I am not depressed. Depression is a lack of emotion. Depression is life without music.

I used to think it would be nice to be deaf. Sometimes, I still think that. I do not like noise. I relish an excuse for silence. Sign language thrills me. But I would be so depressed if I were to become deaf now. I know music, and to lose music would be a terrible fate.

When I am stressed, I have music that will calm me. When I am lonely, I have music that will celebrate my solitude. When I am dull, I have music that will inspire me. When I feel low, I have music that will lift my spirits.

I don’t always choose music to evoke a certain mood. At times, I listen to something new or simply turn on a piece for background enjoyment. This is one of those times. I am listening to the opening score of Me Before You, composed by Craig Armstrong. I haven’t even seen the movie. Before this, it was Belle, composed by Rachel Portman, and A Little Chaos, by Peter Gregson. I have become wistful, thoughtful, and a little sad in a peaceful way. My heart swells each time the music crescendos, and I feel a great longing to be very still and yet to do something amazing at the same time. So I write, because that is the closest I can get.

Those who create music hold such power in their ability. Or perhaps it’s only me whose emotional state and creative fervor rely entirely on musical accompaniment.



I wrote that several weeks ago, and now I’d like to accompany it with some of my favorite compositions and songs, just for those interested. I think these lists exhibit why it’s so hard for me to answer the question, “What kind of music do you like?” Umm…. I don’t think there’s a genre to describe my random tastes, so… everything?

5 Songs That Lift My Spirits

Appalachian Wine, by eleventyseven

Ngamila, by Mumford and Sons and Baaba Maal

Bang My Head, by David Guetta, Sia, and Fetty Wap

Wayolo Yamoni – “We Overcome the Wind,” by Christopher Tin

Happiness – Acoustic, by NEEDTOBREATHE


5 Compositions So Beautiful They Make You Want to Laugh and Cry at the Same Time

Takeoff, by Adam Young

Nuvole Bianche, by Ludovico Einaudi

Aeon, by Nick Murray and Juliet Lyons

Dancing On the Light, by Richard Dillon

River Flows In You, by Yiruma


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